I tore my calf sprinting playing baseball when I was 39 years old. It felt like I either hit myself with my bat or fouled the ball as hard as I could into my calf. It felt like it exploded as I came out of the batters box. The tear was 3.5 mm. For myself I think it was about that six month time period where I felt better, but I was not in a hurry to sprint or anything like that.
Tearing a muscle and having all that down time physically doesn't exactly inspire a lot of confidence in your body to perform pre-injury. And you probably aren't right still like you said. Everyone recovers at different rates.
You can something else to do for conditioning that you think you'd enjoy doing other than running. You can always revisit it in a few months and see how your body responds. If you feel like you're going to injure yourself again, it's best to stay away from running. The idea is to get fit, not injured, right? You have to be intuitive about your body and figure out what works best for it.
I gave up baseball because it was a recreational activity and my life didn't revolve around it. I played enough baseball in my life and there are always other things I can do both physically and with my time.
If I were in your position (and I have been), I'd still continue to work on working through ranges of motion for your ankle, doing things like standing calf raises in three different positions (toes pointing inward, toes neutral, toes pointing out) and some forward inchworms that involve a lot of baby steps to go through the range of motion.
