I wanted to be historically great. Like, when we would read stories in class I always thought, "it should be me that we read about, I should be one of those people."
and I am. I'm not going to explain how, but on my journey with God I've already became a biblical (in status), historically great figure.
I have a long way to go here on earth in terms of how other people view me and I'll work on that in due time, but in terms of how God feels about me I couldn't be doing any better than I am,.. and yes, I do feel satisfied in that.
I still want to be awesome separate from God, like I still have that burning desire to just be a badass that people look up to, that's amazing at one thing or another - I don't care about the particulars, I just want to be epic. We'll work on that
It's not something that eats at me, it's just a positive, good thing (God also approves of my ambition - He loves it). I'm very satisfied with where I'm at now.