Yeah, i know it by myself. While I didn't have nowhere nearly as bad childhood, I had my self-esteem fucked up by my mother. Not intentionally, but very effectively and I could connect the dots as I grew up how certain parentss behaviours affect me. DeSean had several instances where he showed he doubted himself etc. press conference after Izzy "who the fu** let this fuc**** retard get a belt", he said in Joe Rogan that having łów self-esteem sucks. As someone who competed in bjj I understand that at press conference he said that he was happy for a moment, but then he was a bit over it. The void is terrible, while competition gives some purpose at the end of the day it often changes nothing, doesn't give happiness for long. As many friends moved out od town, low self-esteem makes difficult to get any relationship, bad job. At press conference he once said "This shit doesn't mąkę me happy (belt), at times I don't know what makes me happy". Here's the thing you guys, I don't know what is the key, but better paid job, sport acomplishments, anything when you level up you find out there's no happiness in it. Sean has a girlfriend, probably small circle od friends that understands him and he relishes this circle and being arround his fans.
Therapy is tricky. If you can't trust therapist it's pointless. I tried two and hello nah. A other idzie is that it's financially hard to afford therapy for many people on my country. In Sean's case that's not na issue. I hope he finds peace in life